Shah Alam, Selangor, Malaysia
I'm your everyday, regular 16-year-old girl with a high ambition. My life regulates around the boundaries which I have unconsciously set upon myself. I can be described as plain, competitive, emotional and thriving. My dream would be to publish a best-selling novel and be internationally known, and later get into (if possible) showbiz. So look out, world! Here comes the great, one and only, N. Hannah!

stress and burn.


Ugh. Stress is literally eating me up from the inside. Like, I seriously feel like vomiting after every meal. Even the thought of lunch/dinner makes me want to throw up -- which is really strange considering I usually love food.

I'm getting thinner, too, I notice -- but I hardly think its in a good way. I mean, often times I feel myself shaking, and my muscles will go into this spasmatic state, where I'll get all weak and tired and stuff.

At first I figured it was my sleeping habits and/or diet -- but that can't possibly be it. I catch up on a ton of sleep every afternoon. Plus, although the idea of eating literally makes me sick, I hardly think I'm skipping meals THAT much.

...Ugh. Its this stress. Its killing me.

I mean, apart from debate, I've got the public speaking thing to look forward to, AND mid-terms. Yck. I am SO not prepared for this... Dad is going to kill me when he hears I've been slacking on my study schedule. PLUS, debate classes during school hours is making me feel all horrible and guilty... I'm getting all these emotional breakdowns -- which kind of freak me out. Not to mention, it gets kind of annoying after a while.

But seriously, folks. It isn't my fault. Don't go blaming me if, all of a sudden, my mood swings from overly chipper to obnoxiously depressed.

I'm going through a major meltdown right now, and it won't surprise me one BIT if I end up passing out on stage next Tuesday.

...lets just pray I don't, though.

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